This is going to be kind of a strange post, I always like reading these kind of posts and watching videos on YT about this topic. WHAT DOES MAKEUP MEAN TO ME!!
Well personally for me it goes way back. Since I was a child my favourite part of the year was my summer dance show. This was not just because I absolutely loved attention and being on stage gave me that, it was because an hour before the show my mother would put makeup on me!! Bare in mind my mother wasn't much of an "Artist" so the makeup she used on me was about 25 shades darker than what I needed, but hey I felt FABULOUS! Still to this day the smell of Elizabeth Arden Flawless Finish Foundation brings me back. I just loved the way it transformed me. I felt like I could take on the world with my war paint on.
Bobbi Brown said that women are either intrigued or Mystified by Makeup I was definitely intrigued!As you can see from the picture above my makeup game was ON POINT from a young age. My mother bought me a teachers board and chalk for my 7th birthday but I wasn't too crazy about the whole idea of being a teacher so instead I crushed up the chalks and made brightly coloured eyeshadows. I now know that probably wasn't the best thing to do from a health and Safety P.O.V, but hey who knows how the greats get started ;)! I ended up with an unblended block colour usually of the pastel blue hue...ahead of my time I would believe!!
I just loved the way that makeup made me feel. Even though it didn't look it I felt sophisticated and Older. As I got into my teens I started to experiment more with colours and and even bought a few brushes!! I slowly started to improve my skills it was a slow process and through the majority of my teens I was still a one colour all over the lid kind of girl.
I still remember the first mac product I bought it was such a luxury and it really made me feel like a million bucks. It was copper sparkle pigment which is still pretty much full as you get a ridiculous amount of product...well....not any more....but that's beside the point. Again I will say it but I loved the way having that little Brown Thomas Bag made me feel even though it was superficial it was like a little slice of heaven.
Then when I was 16 something horrible happened, my brother passed away suddenly leaving us all in shock. I was still in school but it was like I had nothing, like my whole life was crumbling. I don't know what I would have done without my friends and family to support me.
One thing I always knew I could turn to was makeup. It was almost like if my skin was flawless so was everything else. I could get lost for hours playing with what little makeup I had....it was happiness sold in a mascara tube!!
Not too long after this I discovered Youtube The first video I ever watched was by Lauren Luke. I loved how she was so normal and explained everything so simply.
This is the first video I ever watched!!
It was because of her I bought the 120 colour palette on ebay. I honestly thought I was a MUA extraordinaire .. I was definitely no Charlotte Tillbury. I finally had lots of colours to play with this was true start into my makeup development!!
Basically I finished school yada yada yada....and then I went to college, because thats what everyone does, isn't it? I ended up doing three years in a course that I hated to please other people. I always knew that makeup was my calling and eventually I decided to do something for myself and drop out to pursue my dreams.
So that brings me to writing this post...
I have been working so hard in a string of horrible jobs saving for my new life as a Makeup artist. I will hopefully attend makeup school in London. They say if you love your job you will never work a day in your life, I am a firm believer in that. I have put my dreams on hold for a long time and I can't wait for my new life to begin.
At the end of it all makeup has become so much more than a mask to me. I think the makeup world and its ever changing nature represents me. I have had to adapt to a lot of things in my life and I have become a stronger person for it. Kevin Aucoin said that "no amount of makeup can mask an ugly heart" you need to learn to let makeup fuel your confidence not be your confidence. Let it be a springboard not a crutch. Make Up has been the Best Part of my life for a long time and it means alot to me!
Makeup is beauty, it is strength and most importantly it is self expression....
AND THATS WHAT MAKEUP MEANS TO ME.